Monday, April 20, 2020

My Sister

If my sister had taken out the trash, 
I wouldn't have gone out today.

If my sister knew math, 
Angela would never come my way.

If my sister loved me more,
I wouldn't turn to wishing well.

If my sister was less distant,
I wouldn't be quite myself.

The Sun

The sun has seen me loving you. 
The sun has seen me try again.
The sun witnessed blurry thoughts
and the wishes I forgot. 

The sun has seen me touching you.
The sun has seen me shy and weak.
The sun has seen me begging you
to give life another chance
and try not to fall again.

The sun has seen it all...

The sun has seen me close my eyes,
turn my back and move along.
The sun knows that, since then,
I don't know what love is for... 
The sun has seen me grow up strong,
determined and serious,
unwilling to give it all up
for another memory with you. 

The sun has seen it all... 

How to Mend a Broken Heart

Move a 1000 km south 
from the place of pain.

Surround yourself with other hearts
that have things to sort out.

Feed your heart music, 
stories and chocolate.
Bathe it in Aegan sea. 
Dress it in wineyard leaves.

Sooner than later, you'll accept your fate
and smile, as the Greek sun fades away.

Every Time I Write

Every time I write, I try to write a poem;
it's a way of living inside this crazy drawing
that one might label as 'life'.

Every time we talk, I end up upset.
I told you: Stop being an insecure brat!
You live a tough life, but it's as much as you get,
so make it worthy, or go fuck yourself.
I spent my time, energy and words
to motivate you to talk to her,
yet you kept sitting on your butt
and doing almost nothing that pays off. 

I turned off my phone, empathy and will.
Nobody needs me. 
For the first time, it's a thrill.

Cannot Talk to Her Unless She's Alone

I questioned her about rock,
Germany and mom;
whilst denying guilt,
she felt troublesome.
I told her she's been doing crack
when she was fourteen;
her biggest fear is being deaf
where there's so much to hear. 
Her best friend - a criminal's son;
with him, she wasn't going far.
Outside she was suffocating,
inside she was numb.

I was so convincing! She could have bought it all!
But when she turned around,
she was not alone.

Socks In Bed

Get yourself a date with possibility.
If you get scared, wear socks to bed.
My aunt taught me: 
Thursdays are for relaxation,
on weekends chase your dreams,
and Mondays are for picking the wrong deal.

No Such Thing

I blame dad for manipulation
and emotional abuse.
I blame grandma for interrupting
when I'm speaking the truth.
I blame middle school
for calling me a fool
and I blame the world I know
for not being my support,
but there's no such thing as support
when you're insecure.

Ložim se na idiote

Ložim se na idiote
koji samo sebe vole;
tretiraju me kao roba, 
smešna im je moja borba.

Ložim se na debile
koji večito za nešto cvile;
kako zinu - lažu, 
a ja im čuvam stražu.

Ložim se na akrepe
koji traže da im ljubim dupe;
gledaju me sa visine
i šire glasine.

Ložim se na kretene
koji prave probleme;
krv mi piju, meso jedu,
sve, samo da me zajebu!

Što se, bar, ne ložim na majmune,
da mogu u Lazu da me zatvore...

The Opposite of a Kiss

Instead of growing up strong,
you grew up weak, ugly and sick.
We sat in front of our primary school;
you picked up a stick and showed me a trick.

I said I've never kissed before.

With a steel paddle I play ping pong,
a game you pick when we're in public.
I wouldn't want to come off as cruel,
but such a cynic guilts too quick!

A day will come when I'll learn to say no.

Friday, April 17, 2020

Ti

Olako govoriš o sebi
kada staviš đubre na svoj krevet.
Olako govoriš o sebi
kad sve stvari strpaš u kofer. 

Čuješ li me kad ti kažem
da đubre izneseš?
Čuješ li me kad ti kažem
da se raspakuješ?